Refinement

What an exhausting weekend! I have never felt so drained, emotionally. I seriously wish I could put a lid over my emotions and just not feel a thing.

I wish I would not take things personally.
I part of me wishes I didnt try so hard to save myself, just for the fact that I wouldnt be so hurt now. And that I wouldnt look at him with such anger and frustration.

Somehow in this great mess of emotions, God is trying to teach me something He has never taught me before. I only hope I have the strength to see it and make it through with love, only love.

If you can, please pray for me.