Refinement

How HAVE you been tumblr?!

Ahhh so where do I begin. There is so so so much I want to catch up on.
These past few weeks I’ve been wanting to blog, but I’ve been so busy & forgetful.

I think what I’m going to do is start a blog about the journey that Matt & I are going to embark on, very soon.
Him & I are moving to SanDiego, and I’m truly excited. It would be awesome to have a specific blog that him & I share. I can take notes about the little shops I’ll most likely encounter out there. Or how awesome it is to be able to have the BEACH close by. Or I can journal about our little picnics that Matt & I will go on. Or how decorating an apartment is more complicated than it appears. Or blog about how being away from my family is difficult. Or how successful a recipe was. Or how much of a change it is to share your finances.

I just think it’ll be nice. (:

I feel like I’m in a tornado, just spinning and spinning. Being lifted off the ground, and not having something to hold on to. I feel like that quite often. And then just spinning. Just spinning and spinning. And then finally getting to the very top and just floating. Being at the top always feels great. The spinning part, doesn’t. I find myself going over certain subjects more than once or certain situations, and its just getting really old now.

Freedom, please.

Oh, did I tell you I went to Seattle?? Oh my goodness, it was so beautiful. I loved how there were trees everywhere. But I did not love how cold it got. My friend Audrey let me & Matthew stay at her family’s home, and it was just so relaxing and comfortable. She has a great great family, and a funny little old grandmother.
I LOVE their shops out there.
Kirkland was definitely my favorite city. So beautiful.
I especially enjoyed the Farmers Market as well. That was a neat experience.

Schools going really well. God totally gave me the grace to finish both Bio lecture & Lab AND math all in one semester. I met some really neat people in my Bio classes. I feel like this semester went by so slow yet so fast. I love going to zumba class with my Jessie & Dani. We have such a good time. We become little 5 yr olds. I also went to Homecoming this year. And it was a lot of fun. I was so incredibly sore the following day, but it was worth it.

My friendship with my Nicole has definitely been growing. I have such a love for that little woman. She makes me laugh so hard, and she talks about things I would never have the boldness to utter. Its fantastic! Haha. I see Gods love & favor over her so much. She just gets me as a person. I’m really grateful that it was her that kept me company as I got fitted for my bridal gown.

Speaking of gown. My goodness do I have a story for you. I purchased a gown that I didn’t love, and as a result lost a little over $700! What a mistake!! But the gown I have now, I’m madly in love with. And I only hope Matthew finds it beautiful on me. But, haha, who would have that! Me! Of all people! Purchasing the wrong gown!

My job has been such a blessing in disguise.
Not even in disguise. Its just been a blessing.
I have a great working environment, and wonderful team. I love the interaction I have with my colleagues. And I especially love talking to new people. That’s all my work consists of. Interviewing people over the phone. Sometimes I’m just blown away by the stories people have. More than once I’ve spoken to very successful businessmen & women that aren’t in it for the money anymore. They’re in it for the “making a difference” business. Like today, I spoke to a woman that makes a little over $150,00 a year, but is wanting to take a low income job just because of the fact that she can help others & spend more time with her husband. I think that is mind blowing. I truly admired her. I want to be there at one point in my life. Become extremely successful and then CHOOSE to take a position that is all about making a difference. I love it.

You know, I’ve had a few things come up in me that I never thought was there. Unforgiveness & bitterness. Two self destructing seeds.

I have always been so hard on myself. Always. I’ve always tried my best to live at such a high standard. I’ve always tried to live my life differently, and make the right decisions. But I’ve got to tell you, it gets hard living a life like this. You find yourself feeling very alone. But more importantly, you find yourself thinking that no one will every meet your expectations.

What a dangerous place to be in. You put those you love at risk. And you cause yourself a lot of frustration.

My Father has slowly but surely been working in me. He’s been showing me that though things aren’t going as I planned, things are going as HE planned. And that’s far more important.

I have more to say, but I’m being called to the living room.
I’ll leave you with this, reader:

He makes beautiful things out of dust.
He makes beautiful things out of us.

Love,

G