Refinement

Loving someone is one of the most riskiest thing you can do in life.
I am terrified.

I feel like there is no solid ground. Like it doesnt exist right now.

My true concern is that what if he & I get so busy that we neglect our marriage.

Matt and I chose to pick up and move to a place where we know not one person. Matt is going to start a new job and I am going to work from home and plan a wedding and still be a full time student.

I’m being told by so many people to fucking enjoy the season I’m in right now, and I’m having a really difficult time with that. I’m just so drained, I really am. And on top of that, I’m covering my ass living out here.

I was talking to my mother today and she asked me how I was doing, how school was just around the corner.. I told her I felt the same way like I did last year in January. Which, was not good. I am so sad that I have no excitement about starting classes at the school I’ve been wanting to go to for 2 years now! How pathetic is that!

I’d really like a hug from Jesus right now.